Thursday, March 1, 2012

7 weeks

I was 7 weeks pregnant on March 1.  We had our first appointment March 2.  I can't believe I was finally going to the doctor for my first actual "OB" appointment.  Everything was finally making sense.  All those other appointments and such had led up to this exciting and nerve-wracking appointment.  As excited as I was to be going to the doctor that was going to be delivering our baby, I was so scared and nervous about this appointment.  My poor husband was too.  Was there really a baby inside of me?  Was there still a heartbeat?  I can't tell you how many times I prayed, "Dear God, please let there still be a heartbeat."  There are several life circumstances that will do their best at trying to scar you for life.  I think that having a miscarriage and dealing with infertility does a good job at making the list.

Needless to say, my blood pressure at my doctors visit was high, surprise surprise.  My heart must have been beating out of my chest as I lay on the table with my husband by my side, waiting for my doctor to come in.  Lucky for me, I never have to wait long and he is always on time.  Thank God for that!

My doctor, who I just love and feel is the perfect doctor for me, came into the room with this huge smile on his face.  He said he couldn't believe he saw my name on his patient list today and was so excited.  Knowing how anxious and nervous I was he immediately did the ultrasound and told us everything looked perfect.  Then came the part I was dying to know...and immediately the sound, "lub dub lub dub lub dub lub dub," came across the machine.  Music to my ears.  I remember saying, "Thank you God," as tears immediately flooded my eyes and ran down my face.  As the doctor handed us the ultrasound pictures, told us everything look perfect, that our baby was measuring right on time with an estimated due date of October 18, and then asked if we had any questions, I just stared at him, with tears just streaming down my face.  Completely in shock.  I couldn't believe it.  I had a real baby inside of me.  I was finally going to be a mom.  Wow.  What a road we have been down that has finally lead to this amazingly wonderful moment.

And then I remembered, he asked me if I had any questions...Yes, "When can I come back?"  He told me that I didn't need to come back until 4 weeks, but that I could come see him as many times as I needed if it would make me feel better.

I am pretty sure both my husband and I walked out of that office on cloud 9.  We couldn't believe it.  We were going to have a baby!  And I can't think of any one better to share this incredible journey with.

Thank you God for this amazing blessing.

Please pray for those that are trying to start a family.  There are a handful of our family and friends that know the journey we have been on to become parents and their support, love, sympathy, and compassion through the entire process has been overwhelmingly amazing.  I thank God for you guys everyday.